Today’s theme is simple (in theory); recovery.
It shouldn’t be so hard to just move forward. To let go when you have made mistakes and just forge ahead. But, at least for me, these are some of the most difficult things to do.
Fortunately, I have a lot of options for support in doing this and I plan to use each and every one of them. One of the most helpful, of course, is this blog.
Basically, my life just got completely jumbled up in the last week and true to form I used eating to deal with it. Of course, eating only made things worse. It made me feel shitty about myself, feel shitty physically, and just was all around not helpful in any way. It got so bad, in fact, that yesterday my body just completely crashed. It was compounded by a number of other factors, but I felt TERRIBLE when I woke up yesterday and ended up spending most of the day in bed.
Today is a different day. And as I said all through my Jenny Craig experience, I refuse to give up. This is going to be a lifelong battle for me and I acknowledge that.
So this recovery thing. To me, its just about forgiving yourself and allowing yourself to move forward. Accepting the mistakes you made, but not focusing on them. Because they are done. Over. Moving on.
Today I went to the gym and had a good workout and have been trying to reestablish my eating patterns. I am also going to get organized in my new house (particularly in the kitchen). I am going to go to Weight Watchers meeting today and face the music as they say. But I am not going to let it get me down when I see the damage that I have done. I am instead going to just take it, accept it, and move forward.
This is how I do the “recovery” thing. How do you all deal with your struggles?
As always, thanks for reading. I will probably be posting again after my meeting to ensure that I don’t get too down on myself and really can move forward.
Enjoy your Wednesday, everyone.